Tomorrow makes 10 months since the babies were born. I woke up today feeling very nostalgic. I don't know what kind of dreams I was having, but I woke up feeling like everything was still fresh. So, since this morning, I've been longing for some way to bring back the closeness to both my babies; a scent, a memory, something tangible. I feel like I'm losing that closeness and I don't like it.
Sounds so strange. It's like for the time during and right after the pregnancy, everything else stood still and Heaven was closer. I've been feeling "better" lately, like I'm functioning at a more normal pace and the dark, weighted fog has lifted. The problem is that everything didn't really stand still, it kept moving forward. So, now I'm struggling to catch up, but I really don't want to catch up in the old normal. I changed and I don't belong there anymore. I can't pretend I didn't change.
I'm thankful that God still has plans. We're working on our part of those plans and would appreciate your prayers. The old normal isn't comfortable anymore. I know God has something different planned, I look forward to seeing how it all pans out.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Time for something new... and very different than my normal posts... but a chance for a giveaway!
Einstein, Warhol, Keller, and Jung,
a common tie did bond.
Churchill, Rush, and Gable knew,
one whose year held fond.
a pilot point assembly joined
through a separation;
from a state of same did rise
a call to remember the historic.
now you have the who and when,
the what and where did follow.
answer these to win a prize,
or ask, your pride to swallow.
If anyone can figure it out, I'll have some kind of prize for you.
After all, I do have a box that has been accumulating prize options!